So this is what is like to be a blogger..

So this is what its like to be a blogger?? ..... i guess u can call it interesting..
its an easy way for myself to let go of the way that i feel inside..this may be a good release of all the emotions i have..
in fact writing feels pretty swell.. idk why i havent tried it more often..

as we speak cartoons are on and my sons on the floor sleeping. slobbing away.. now its my trme of freedom. I dont get to much of that anymore. so i better enjoy the time while i can.. He will be waking up soon. and back to mommy duty i go..

WOW. today has been a looong boring day.. already and its just barely 12 oclock..
what am i doin with my life? and why am i writing in YELLOW?....
who knows.. lets change that..


Whatever color u call this? idk.. Much better..


as this being my first blog.. i presume its goin to be very long... who knows i may get bored of this in the next 30 sec..
lets see..
...... a new color? what.. how did that happen??

... 1..2..3..4..5..6..7..8...........30!!
yAY! its been 30 sec. and im not bored..

i mean.. lifes pretty hard right now.. im not really sure what to do withmyself. i want to go to college.. i want be away.. but i guess not everybody makes it that far.. i have made alot of mistakes but i wish i wouldnt get critized for every little thing that happens.. but eff it.. i guess thats just what they call life.. Right?
or is it? whats next to come for me?.. what does the lord have in store? idk..
i guess from now on ill just have to sit back and wait n see.. and write about it..

I told you guys he would be awake... so i got to make this short and sweet.
but ill be back..